Me? Nah, I'm busy with life.

So that is what someone said to me when I asked them if they were seeing someone.
Now typically, I wouldn't really think too much of a response like this.
But in the context of the person who we're discussing here it is kind of irritating.

Basically, he is one of those..."I live everyday like its my last. Live life to the fullest. I need to be extreme otherwise I'm not living." kinds of people. And to the point that he doesn't appreciate the quieter yet meaningful moments in life.

I honestly just found this comment from him to be very stand off-ish. As if to say to me "yeah sure you can date people but I want to live to I'm going to pass on that.
Now don't get me wrong, I love being single, and I love doing my own thing.
But I think that when you find someone and you both respect each other - those things aren't compromised.
Maybe he just has the impression that is what happens.
I suppose what annoyed me most was that I couldn't really talk to him about this because he's probably be offended.
I sometimes get the impression that he views my comparatively quieter lifestyle as boring or wasted. That makes me a bit angry.
I know I shouldn't care what other people think in regards to how I live my life, but I think that it still ain't a nice feeling.
I wish I couldn make him understand that its just good to go with the flow, and sure step out of your comfort zone. But you don't have to do it all the time. Just to prove a point.

Oh well yeah sorry if what I'm saying is disagreeable but I think that I just wanted to vent.

Fool

Music plays around him and licks his ear in the way that always made him writhe in ecstasy.

At this time he felt the opposite.

His head rested limply, cupped in his right hand. Fingers coming to rest beneath his brow, on his forehead and along his cheek.

Eyes closed with fatigue, pain and hurt.

His heart beat more than in should - and with each beat he knew that one day this anxiety, these feelings that overcome him so easily would eventually take it all away.

The music got louder and he was sitting in the dark.

"I'm such a fool."

Here we go again

Today I was sitting on the tram going back to uni again.

I look back at what last year held and then I get excited to think about everything waiting

for me this year.

Also, the canadians are leaving. I'm sad that two of them are leaving.

But one is really annoying is leaving and I'm happy.

He is immature, bratty and frankly quite insulting.

His reasons for leaving are kind of funny.

"I've felt that i've gotten everything Melbourne has had to offer me (in 4 weeks) and that Sydney has much more to offer me, the people there are nicer anyway"

Yeah fair enough but just because I don't find you attractive in the slightest, doesn't mean no one else will in Melbourne.
He also quit a job he landed in a good cafe and then quit because he didn't like that he had to hold plates in a certain way. He basically needs to grow up and that he can't seem to do just yet.
He puts forth the image of maturity but inside he is just as insecure and ignorant as a lot of people. Don't try and be something you're not. It's stupid.

I'm honestly gonna miss the girls because they were super cool.

Oh well.

Also I love that all these new people in my course are really attractive because it gives me something to look at in lectures.

Aside from this, I have tae kwon do tomorrow and I'm happy to start that, not nervous at all which is good.