A fact of life

Well I woke up this morning and turned on my phone thinking "Hmm what would complete this day? Probably getting cancelled on. Well surely enough I turned on my phone and I got this:

"I'm sorry to do this, but can we pls reschedule for nxt wk? I've just woken up and am feeling shitty, this cold is coming back again. :( I'm sorry."

In other words - I'm hungover.

Oh well can't say I feel much, it's had happened that many times that I feel this is a nearly natural - daily occurrence.

Maybe even a fact of life.

Headache

Eucalyptus scented mopping is making my head hurt.

Not as painful as the 9:30 - 12:30 Japanese class I skipped this morning.

Pffft

Sigh-DESIRE-Sigh

You know that feeling that gets less frequent as the years pass?

The feeling that makes you tingle and think "OH god what are you doing?! I want to be with you"

You get distracted from your daily life.

Everything starts relating to the one that makes you feel like this.

You notice the amount of people with that name.

You notice things that person says popping up all around you, like they are writing your story and you are walking through it unknowingly. Of course they aren't BUT sometimes you feel that way.

Then you start thinking about fate and all related bullshit romance. Then you think and think and you see the mortality of the romance before it begins.

Well why is that?

for obvious reasons.

The one time in almost a year I find someone I want and who I assume wants me and it is impossible. Oh well.

Times like this all we can say is FML

Uh oh

Hmm so I'm lacking motivation this semester at uni and surprise surprise it's reflected in my grades.
Oh well I'm not failing. But still, it isn't my best.
Makes my stomach knot.

Sometimes

Sometimes I really wonder why I let my gaurd down time and time again.
I get the feeling now that I've done it this time, it will be a spectacular fuck up just like every other time. But I guess this is the first time in a long time I've felt something like this.